April 21, 2014
It’s all coming to a head today. I am exhausted, emotional, and irrational. Nathan and I are bickering more than usual. It’s getting hard to think past the tired.
I am humbly reminded of what exhaustion reveals; my true nature. I’m selfish and sinful, out of control and seeking accolades for my sacrifice. What kind of servant is that?
Lord Jesus, help me push through the tired. But also, please make a way for some rest. Help me be patient with my family, loving and understanding. I feel like a terrible wife and mother, and a rotten person in general. Remind me that you are near.
Is this walking on water? Because so far it isn’t so exhilarating.